Unbearable Pain: My Battle Against the Mysterious Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It began on a dreary Monday morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a educator, attempting to manage a new class, when a sharp sensation sprang behind my right eye. It was followed by rapid shocks, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As the school day came and went, the discomfort eased and then returned with greater intensity. Multiple times that day I left a colleague with activities and hurried to the school bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I tried aspirin, but the agony remained unbearable.

The attacks appeared repeatedly that autumn, and once more in spring, soon forming an annual pattern. The autumn months were the most severe, then February and March. I could predict the routine: aura in the shower, early pangs on the commute, full-on agony in the classroom by 9.30am. In late 2019, a GP finally sent me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches often start with intense discomfort around one eye that persists up to three hours.

About one in 1,000 individuals are affected by the disorder, and men are more often diagnosed. Attacks usually begin with sudden, excruciating pain around a single eye that peaks within minutes and continues for up to three hours. Episodes come in clusters, every day or several times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or face perspiration. I have an episodic type, which arrives in periodic cycles; others have continuous cluster headaches, characterized by the lack of long pain-free periods.

What connects sufferers is the severity. One research paper scored the pain at 9.7 out of 10, higher than broken bones or other conditions. A separate found a significant percentage of cluster patients experienced suicidal thoughts amid attacks; the number dropped to 4% when they were not in pain.

Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a chronic sufferer from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her episodes began when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the ground and hit my head. That was put down to being a difficult child,” she says. Her condition worsened through childhood. Alcohol in her adolescence, like several causes, made things more intense. After having sherry at her graduation party, she remembers barely being able to see on the bus home.

Her relatives often mistook her episodes as drunken episodes. Understanding eventually came from her parent and then from her husband, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found clerical work after moving, but often hid her condition. She was dismissed from one job, in part due to absences during episodes. Her breakthrough identification came in the early 2000s at a specialist neurology center.

Still, the inability to organize life around unpredictable attacks took its effect. She especially disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her family during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the simple freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.


Headaches have been documented across history. “The first description of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write authors in a publication on the subject. They attributed the disease to an malevolent entity who afflicted his victims' heads.

Ancient medical texts suggest unusual treatments for what modern observers would classify as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, migraine was identified as a separate disorder, with treatments including herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious cures.

It was a European doctor who provided the first comprehensive account of a cluster headache. In his writings, he describes a patient “suffering with a very intense headache occurring and vanishing each day at specific hours”.

Cluster headaches were only officially recognised by global headache societies in 1988. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a major blood vessel that supplies blood to the head. Leading specialists in diagnosing the condition note this.

In 1998, researchers released the results of a study for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and monitored the attacks in a imaging machine. The data, published in a major medical publication, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they felt better.

Despite such progress, identification remains delayed. One man's symptoms began in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he had four surgeries before finally being correctly identified in recently, after a physician looked up his complaints.

Specialists say wait times in diagnosing and treatment happen because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're tired and low, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He works by eliminating other primary head pain disorders, such as migraine, before diagnosing the disorder. A detailed history is essential: on which side do signs occur? For how long? What season? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Certain features such as tearing, sagging eyelids and nasal congestion help confirm cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to specialist clinics. But a lot of first arrive to A&E or are given inadequate therapies.

A charity trustee, 78, has experienced cluster headaches for most of her adult life, although she has been free from an attack since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth pulled because dentists misinterpreted her pain. She believes the dental profession still need greater education. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was she who replied. I remember calling a support line during an bout in 2021; a reassuring advisor guided them through oxygen treatment and medication until the episode eased.

Official guidance on treatment advise that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a anti-migraine drug administered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Preventive choices include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly helps manage the attacks of well-known people.

But consultant specialists argue the guidance need revising to reflect a clearer treatment pathway and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For periodic patients, the treatment window is critical: “The duration of the bout determines the treatment.” Short bouts with infrequent episodes are handled with acute therapy only. Longer or more intense bouts require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes paired with steroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an injection into the side of the head where the pain is that reduces nerve signals.

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Angela Bishop
Angela Bishop

A digital artist and design educator with over a decade of experience in vector illustration and creative software development.